You think you’re doing okay and then wham! You’re right back in the middle of it again. I try not to dwell on it too much. I know how depressing it can be. Here’s what I’ve been dealing with. I’ve been off my anti-depressant for about 6 months. I’ve been feeling great. I got through…
Grief and Loss
Sometimes it seems like you can’t heal what you can’t understand.
It’s been 4.5 years since my best friend from elementary school was murdered. I still talk about her all the time. I mention her to people who don’t know her and never will. It’s like my mind can’t make sense over what happened. So, I have to talk about it. It’s not obsessive. But I…
Multi-generational living
A small prediction: with the rise of healthcare in this country families will be choosing to live together to save money as a multigenerational family. We are already thinking this direction. My mom is not getting any younger and she wants us to purchase a home together. It’s got me thinking about the pluses and…
Miscarriages are hard on the whole family.
Going through Miscarriages makes you realize what is important. When I was in my late 20’s and early 30’s the internet was just beginning. I was fascinated with it…still am, obviously. That is around the time I was trying so hard to have children. I had one by the time I was 27 and got…
Ugh, It’s my life! It’s got to get better.
Life is not easy. It never is. Sometimes when you go through tragedies you begin to think that maybe it will get better. It has to right? The reality is, no, it doesn’t have to get better. We hope it does. I have often said that I need no one else to die for the…
When someone dies
you come to realize what is really important in life. If you’ve noticed I’m not posting every giveaway known to all the cool online bloggers. Why? Because it’s not important to me or my family. I started my blog to write about every day life being a mom/wife/parent/friend/daughter, not to be a giveaway blogger. Rarely…
Funerals are part of life
and they stink. I hate them. In the last 5 years I’ve lost my best friend since 3rd grade, my brother and now my father. The worse part of life is death. The aftermath of the death is just as traumatic as the death itself. The people who call that don’t know. The bill collectors…
Summer is almost over…
sob! How can that be? What will I miss most? The incessant fighting, constant arguing, or nonstop aggravating? Hmmm. We have been contacted by one teacher. We are anxiously awaiting the next one’s email/phone call. My kids will be sad that they have only a week and a half left of summer. I must try…
Abandonment feelings in my sweet daughter…
I left her today for a few hours so that I could go on a field trip with my son’s second grade class. She doesn’t ever like us to leave her. EVER. She cries and wants to go with us. We’ve had her since she was 4 months old. But she has most definitely been…
Do you trust God in all things?
or just the big things? I know this is definitely one area I need to work on. I constantly want to do everything myself. I want to fix it. But sometimes you can’t. You know you have no choice then but to trust God and let him work it out. But what about the little…
What a difference a month makes…
A month ago I thought my dad wasn’t going to make it. I thought for sure he’d be gone by now. We’ve been dealing with lots and lots of problems with him. Low blood pressure, liver numbers that are crazy, losing weight (he has no weight to lose), very low kidney function and many other…
1st degree or 2nd degree Murder
There’s a trial going on in my town right now and it just went to the jury. They decided on 2nd degree murder and 15 years for killing someone and not bothering to even try to get them help. There was talk of this on facebook the other day. A friend of mine couldn’t understand…
My grief and loss
You never know how strong you are til you have no other choice but to be strong. In the last four years I’ve lost my best friend since the 3rd grade via murder. This last year I’ve lost my brother unexpectedly due to pneumonia and my dad was expected three different times that he wouldn’t…