I sit here in my quiet house, just me and the dogs, drinking my morning diet coke and listening to the silence. It’s always a great thing for the kids to go back to school. I’m so tired of the constant irritating, aggravating and general boredom that I hear about all summer. Don’t get me wrong we have good days and bad days. The good days outweigh the bad on some weeks and not so much on others. The school year definitely helps with the sibling rivalry! As a mom I love the first day of school. I happily sent off my sophomore, 4th grader and 1st grader. Smiles and kisses greeted them as their happy mother drove them to school! Everyone so happy in the car.
I went to bed early with the kids. But, curses, woke up at 3 a.m. Plenty of time to watch the news and make a ham quiche for the kids and the husband for the first day of school. Wouldn’t you know it I forgot to take a picture. Doh! Well it’s not as if I’ve had anything going on. In case you wondered why I wasn’t on much this past week…
I’ve had a very rough week. Life pushes me down but I will survive this too. My dad died on Sunday. He had an aneurysm in his stomach and from what we can tell it must have burst. The stint failed. I don’t even remember when they found the aneurysm and put the stint in. But regardless I am sad. I know he’s no longer in pain, hurting, fighting cancer, fighting his kidneys and fighting to live. I’m thankful that he went fast and probably had no clue what was happening. I’m sad for my kids, my mom (they’ve been divorced for 36 years but were friends) and myself.
We’ve not had his service yet. We’ll do that on Sunday. I hate funerals and I hate grieving. There, I said it. Life is beautiful and it sucks too. I’m ready for Sunday to be behind me so I can move forward and get on with my next new normal. It was probably a good week for it to happen. Because of school starting we had a lot to do to keep us busy and moving. Next week I will be alone working all week. That will be a good thing too. I can deal with my thoughts I’ve been pushing back because I don’t have time to deal with them.
In the last 5 years I have lost my best friend since 3rd grade, my brother and my father. Whew, you really have no idea how strong you are until you have no other choice but to be strong. I’m ready for next week and thankful for school starting. The schedule for the kids and for me is what we all need! Hug your family and always tell them you love them. You just never know what the next day holds.